all in a dream just prior to it all happening. Yes, it’s documented. I saw my mother in pain and distress and there wasn’t a thing I could do. It was horrific. I woke the next day to a text from my sister saying exactly what I saw the day prior. I wrote this after waking from the nightmares. ‘I hope more than anything that these next few days will be a turning point for my family. It really needs to happen.’
‘Peace’

Well it didn’t!

Now here I am packing to see her in her last days. It’s taken me hours to get ready when it should have only taken 45 minutes. I’m quite awake right now and I’m getting glimpses of something bad happening beyond what is already expected. My BP is much higher than I’d like, my anxiety pill was taken earlier so this all shouldn’t be happening to me. But here it is!

I’d be lying to myself if I said I wasn’t scared. It’s like I’m lost and knowingly headed into something bad. I do not like what’s going on in this little mind of mine. I just want to get there safely to see my Mom. After that I don’t care what happens to me as long as whatever does, only involves me.

Be wrong this time Marty. Please be wrong.